As everyone I'm sure faces, I have had a few rough days as of late.
It hasn't been one big thing, but a number of little things, all piling up, and leaving me to feel ... well.. down, I guess.
Without going into the nitty gritty, what it comes down to, is that I am searching for things that I simply cannot find here in this little community. There are things I just simply don't have here (a spiritual community, close friends ect). I am isolated right now, and with that come challenges and difficulties. The good news is that this is not forever, and soon, a new chapter will be unfolding for us.
I don't want to dwell on the difficulties of this life, instead, I want to focus on how I want to be as a person. Focus on what is important to me. Focus on how to be better. Focus on peace and balance.
Right now I am looking for happiness, and it's through the little choices I make, that I will find that happiness. I may have unfulfilled desires at the moment, but I also have many blessings... the blessings far outweigh the desires.
And so, to find happiness, we do little things, like go out for a family walk in the snow, hook Ryder up to the sled and have him pull the kids, or just be together and cozy up for the winter. Already, just by writing this, I feel a sense of peace... my family brings me so much peace.
I'm going to focus on what I can do to make myself feel happier and at peace and also, I'm going to challenge myself to speak and do more peaceful and kind acts. It's starts with ourselves, doesn't it?