arctic poppies...outside my house!!!! I love poppies!!!!
looking a bit tired I'd say
I did something really big the other day. To some, it might not seem big, but for me it was. I decided to cancel my scheduled toddler art group this coming Tuesday. After the week we just had, I knew that right now is a time that I need to be focussing on my family, and so I decided that I needed to simplify where I could.Those that know me well, know that I have a hard time saying no. I tend to fill my plate up with social commitments, for reasons I'm sure that stem from not wanting to be left out or feel left behind. I do this to myself and then I get upset with myself for piling things up too high. Right now, I am working on saying "no", and it's hard.
I say it all the time, "I need to simplify", but I really don't take it to heart. Lately with Winslow going back to work and myself working part time as a photographer, I feel like there is very little breathing room in our day to day schedule. I know that I am going to burn out if I don't start to slow things down a bit, so I have decided that I am going to cut back on my commitments and only take on extra things if I know that I really want to do them. This might all seem very obvious to some, but it is something that I need to learn how to do.
On Saturday, I caught myself thinking about filling up our "empty" afternoon with a dinner date with friends, and then I stopped myself in my tracks. Why do I feel this need to always be busy? There is nothing wrong with an "empty" afternoon. Embrace it!
And so, now that I am quipped with this new daily mind set, I just need to work on applying it to my real life. Slow is good. Less is more. I'm going to keep telling myself this until I finally really "get it".