I realize that I need to get past this, because it's just a fact, that these activities (school events, sports practices, Scouts ect) will continue to happen, and I won't always have Winslow to help me out. Also, more often than not, we end up having a great time, the kids handle themselves quite well and basically, it turns out to be a successful outing.
On the weekend, we ventured up to the beautiful and majestic Blomidon Provincial Park, for a Scouts Canada camp out. I had been worried leading up to it, because Winslow was working, and I had to take all three kids up on my own, but upon turning down the road towards the park, and driving past little cottages beside the sea, my worries seemed to melt away.
So what if I had to pitch a tent by myself? I'd ask for help, and I knew people would gladly help us out. What if Wesley became miserable (he's teething and has a cough)? Well ... I'd cross that path when and if I came to it.
Once we arrived, the kids departed, found their friends and played and ran as much as they wanted.
It was actually pretty relaxing for me, as they were well entertained and only came to me for snacks.
We went for walks, had a big Scout's Canada dinner around the campfire, and took in the amazing views from the top of Cape Blomidon. I am so happy we went for it! We will be returning to this spot.
It's an interesting life we lead here, as an RCMP family. We are often on our own, without the extra hands of family around to help. If we need help, we have to go out of our way to ask friends and neighbours. We're slowly starting to be okay with asking for help. We're realizing that we can't do it all on our own.
Trying to figure out the logistics of doing activities with 3 kids and 1 adult is hard sometimes. There are times that I think it would be easier to stay home (sometimes it is, sometimes we do). But there is also a certain amount of satisfaction I get from successfully accomplishing an outing, as a solo parent with 3 kids. I feel proud of the kids. I feel proud of us, as a family. And more often than not, I feel so thankful that we went for it, and made the decision to say yes.