January is here and I am still trying to catch up with the new year. Usually at this time of year I feel so refreshed. I usually come up with plans on how we are going to start new meal plans, clean out the house, start better habits, yet I just don't have the motivation. Instead, I am having a hard time catch up and feeling in control of my life. Nothing is wrong exactly, but things just don't feel like they are running smoothly. My mind is elsewhere and I'm feeling overwhelmed with deadlines and responsibilities. Ah, this is life. I know this hard time will pass.
These past few days have been especially hard "mama days". All the mamas reading this will know what I mean. I love my children with all of my heart, but some days (days like we've had recently), I just feel like I am at the end of my rope. Katia has been especially challenging. I had no idea that a 1 year old could have such full blown temper tantrums, and multiple ones at that, in the span of just 2 hours. Oh it's been a challenging few days. And my sweet boy Noah has been getting the worst of it. He so desperately wants my undivided attention (all the time), yet I feel so pulled in many directions, that I brush him off and say "no, not now", too many times. I feel like I give give give all day long and the requests just keep coming in as I finish up the last task. Add to that a walking tornado behind me. I swear, every room we (the children and I) walk through looks like a tornado hit it. I'm not sure how it happens, but when I turn my back, every drawer is opened and all of it's contents are scattered everywhere.... left for me to pick up and put away.
I know this may seem like I am complaining, and I'm not... really I'm not. I'm just being honest about how it is at the moment. I love what I do. I love being home with the kids. It's just been a hard few days and I know that most mamas out there can relate to this is some way, right?
I'm off to bed. They say that rest is really important for starting a day off right. So maybe this small action will help tomorrow go a bit better.