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Friday, February 3, 2012

these days...


The days are going by quick and we are starting to see warmer temperatures and more daylight. These changes that come with the mid winter season are making all the difference in my mood. I'm not going to lie, have had some hard days as of late. A combination of seasonal depression (it get's very dark and cold up here in the winter) and postpartum hormones, has made some days harder than others for me.
Yesterday was a hard day. I can't exactly pin point the exact things that got to me, but it felt hard to be enthusiastic or joyful about anything. By the end of the day I was feeling wiped out and done. I happened to send a message to my best friend who is a new mom and lives 3 hrs ahead of me and even though it was past midnight and she was exhausted, she talked to me and listened and it made me feel so much better. Oh I miss her.
I'm making a conscious effort to do things that make me feel good and that are good for me. Daily walks (not matter how short), taking my vitamins, drinking more water, listening to music that makes me feel good, being forgiving to myself when I can't do everything I'd like to do, and to stop comparing myself to others.
Part of me wishes I could escape the cold North for a bit and that we could have an adventure somewhere. I would just love to go exploring in a new city. To visit some museums, go out for lunch at a new restaurant and walk around outside with out being too cold. I'm feeling restless, bored, and a bit anxious. I'd love to have an escape. But for now I will just have to trudge through. I'll have to make the most of everyday and find happiness in the everyday little things. It's hard but it'll be okay.
I'm off for a bit. Have a wonderful weekend.
xox

10 comments:

  1. So much love mama <3 You're doing such a good job with those little ones.

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    1. thank you so much Des. Your support means so much to me. xox

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  2. Thinking of you, Jo... I know about postpartum depression and I am a real slave to the seasons- the rain and constant grey of January make me feel so hopeless. I'm trying to get out for exercise every single day to fight off the sadness and frustration I've been feeling lately too. If you're able to make it to a city, come see me in Victoria! I'd love to join you at the museum, walk around town {it's wet here, but mild!} and go for lunch. Just say when! <3

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    1. Erin, there is a good chance that we will be coming to Victoria in the late Spring. I will keep you posted and would love to take you up on your offer to spend some time together! :o) xox

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  3. You're very self-aware to be able to identify these things, and wise to look at rectifying them! I think dreaming of somewhere hot is a common pastime up here in winter. You're doing a great job, just be patient with yourself and remember that hibernating after having a baby is probably good rest for you, even if it is a bit boring and depressing :)

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    1. thank you always for your love and support Sarah. Not sure what I would do without you. xox

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  4. Oh honey, take it one day at a time, and before you know it, it will be Spring. It's freezing cold here now too, it just makes everything a little bit more complicated when you have to put yourself and a baby into layers upon layers. But I know I don't have to tell you that we need to focus on the cozy aspect of these cold winter months.
    You do so much, you are so creative and full of love. I don't ever want you to feel like you aren't 'doing enough.' You're amazing!! Such a wonderful wife and mother and friend!
    Sending you love,
    Dawn

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    1. Thank you so so much Dawn. I feel truly blessed to have you as my friend...my kindred spirit. You really do inspire me in so many ways to be positive about life.
      xox

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  5. that quote is so timely for what all of us mom's are dealing with these days!

    Hang in there! ;)

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    1. it's so funny...that quote just popped out at me when I needed it most. xox Thanks Chelsea

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