The days are going by quick and we are starting to see warmer temperatures and more daylight. These changes that come with the mid winter season are making all the difference in my mood. I'm not going to lie, have had some hard days as of late. A combination of seasonal depression (it get's very dark and cold up here in the winter) and postpartum hormones, has made some days harder than others for me.
Yesterday was a hard day. I can't exactly pin point the exact things that got to me, but it felt hard to be enthusiastic or joyful about anything. By the end of the day I was feeling wiped out and done. I happened to send a message to my best friend who is a new mom and lives 3 hrs ahead of me and even though it was past midnight and she was exhausted, she talked to me and listened and it made me feel so much better. Oh I miss her.
I'm making a conscious effort to do things that make me feel good and that are good for me. Daily walks (not matter how short), taking my vitamins, drinking more water, listening to music that makes me feel good, being forgiving to myself when I can't do everything I'd like to do, and to stop comparing myself to others.
Part of me wishes I could escape the cold North for a bit and that we could have an adventure somewhere. I would just love to go exploring in a new city. To visit some museums, go out for lunch at a new restaurant and walk around outside with out being too cold. I'm feeling restless, bored, and a bit anxious. I'd love to have an escape. But for now I will just have to trudge through. I'll have to make the most of everyday and find happiness in the everyday little things. It's hard but it'll be okay.
I'm off for a bit. Have a wonderful weekend.